If there is anything I am exceptional at in this life is that I learn. Any and everything happening in my life or around me is a lesson one way or another. Not many can say the same thing so I count myself quite lucky to be able to do this so seamlessly. It however wasn’t quite so easy. It took a lot of introspection and patience with myself and that alone made me almost want to give up alot of the time but I stuck it out..and that is all that mattered.
I had numerous doubts in and within myself,most of them stemming from how I had been taught to learn from the beginning of my formal education. Because really that is where it all starts. Now I absolutely do not fault my educators. They are also victims of a system imposed on them that they don’t wholly understand and of which they don’t feel any lacking so I’ll digress.
This basis considered,I was set in my ways as was. But I don’t know, I must have been a cat in a previous life because my curiosity was ALWAYS poking at me asking questions..’why’, ‘for what reason’, or ‘can this be done different’ One way or the other, there had to be a question.
The funny thing with being this curious though is that it lands you in trouble so many times,that trouble becomes a normal forte. So routine that anytime things are too quiet and/or sombre the hairs rise. When there are no questions arising from whatever situation, I become antsy. I know, I sound like a paranoid nut which I am but that’s beside the point.
Being as I am therefore, institutional procedure made me (still does) highly uncomfortable. I didn’t know it then but it was very early on that I started feeling and recognising my separation from other normal people. And I paid my price for being different but my reward??
I Iearned to stop listening to everybody telling me that curiosity killed the cat.
I also learned that cats have 9 lives and are dangerous creatures, go figure.
I learned that being me is not a problem. The problem is when I’m being conditioned to be like everybody else.
I learned that learning is the only constant of life. Everything else changes. EVERYTHING.
I was different because I learned to learn,and that is what is making all the difference.